I was thinking the other day that over the last 20 plus years, I have come to acquire much new knowledge. When I think back thirty years, I know so much more than then, but this new knowledge is more than just acquisition, it is the quality and relevance that I find amazing.
I often used to think about some people I knew of that maybe had a hobby that they did all their lives or worked in job all their lives and it seemed interesting to analyse their outlook. My life has been the opposite, although I have about 4 main hobbies, the rest of my own life has been about change and changing situations.
It all goes back to the question why am I here? Aged 12, I looked at this planet and wondered at it, it seemed like some sort of unfinished project.
At one job interview I had it was observed I had moved jobs a lot, that was partly due to the economic situation, a few years before I had read of the Star Seed phenomena and recognised a lot in that that applied to me.
But I still couldn't work out what I was doing here.
Most other people I encounter have their lives all sewn up, they have a house, a relationship, career, what is normality, but I observed I seemed to be drifting and could not seem to put roots down anywhere.
But that was the whole point, I wasn't supposed to.
I realised recently what it was all about and that was change, I was the change agent in things, not by choice but by some sort of design that was beyond my control. Looking back now it seems that because we are all unique unlike robots who do not have spontaneity, that certain people could affect situations, either positively or for the worse.
Nothing ever stands still, everything is in some constant state of change, whether that is decay, accumulation, growth, decline, it goes round in a circular path, just as the Red people have observed.
Looking back over the last 20 plus years, the things I now look at are all connected, they are all pertaining to our future and the big disclosure that will surely come soon. It seems to me that things lead on to other things and my varied existence has been to learn and observe and then to help others with this combined knowledge.
I had no real idea of what I wanted to do as a job after leaving school, particularly after one of my options did not materialise, so I was always seeking the purpose of what to do. Writing has been one thing I developed over the years and with my new knowledge gathered in the last quarter century, things are falling into place.
Perhaps my true purpose of education and helping others is being achieved through this jumbled life I seem to have led!
One path I was on was in research on a book project about the history of humans and robots, this led to seeing some work on Lakota wisdom and knowledge, it was from that interest I looked deeper into the Lakota culture and the pieces are falling into place.
However, I do encounter many people who lead very boring lives, they have no real interests and even though they may have a university education, they don't really know anything or seem to be able to grasp even simple concepts it seems, so would I swap with them?
No. My slightly jumbled up life is far more interesting and in the next 20 years I know I have a lot of work to do which I hope will provide enlightenment for many.